Who do I want to be when I’m older? Right now, it is too complicated for me to respond to this question. I’m a dreamer, the kind of person who is usually in the air. My mind is blowing frequently with a lot of images, melodies, compositions, colors, bizarre ideas, and creative proposals. I want to dance, to move all around the world, to take pictures of the most beautiful sunsets in every single country on this planet. I desire to write movies, documentaries, series, to fly to the moon, and to know all the mysteries of this life.

But my life goes in a really quiet way. Sometimes, I feel anxious to be all my dreams in one life, and simultaneously, at the end of the day, to be just another person with the same routine to live.

My heart asks me for music; he tells me to take my bag, to go sing all around the world, but my mind thinks differently. It tells me to breathe and follow the rhythm that my way is playing, it tells me that I have a wife who is completely different from me, but who loves me. And that’s one of the most important things for me: love.

I’m not sure where my future is going. Everything is different right now, and I love that I have the opportunity to discover this version of me against the world. I know that I can fly with my skills as my wings, but I still have a lot of fears that stop me from doing what my heart screams. Actually, I don’t know if it’s my fears or just my common sense advising me that everything has a time. That in the river of my life, every single day has a purpose. That I may not be ready to be what I dream yet, but I feel that I’m walking in the right way. Maybe there’s not a bad way, who knows?

I want to be a composer, singer, writer, dancer, filmmaker, photographer, cook, owner of my own business, traveler, and another thousand versions of life that I forget right now. The most important thing, apart from my ego and my dreams, though, is that I want love and to be loved. Maybe that’s the point of this madness that we call life.

Oscar Fernando Serna Sanabria is from Bogotá, Colombia, and moved to New York in 2021. He has been an authentic dreamer since childhood, and to this day, he loves learning about everything he can. He studies in the CESL Program at Fordham University’s Institute of American Language and Culture. His teacher is Margaret Ibasco, and the program manager is Jesus Aceves Loza.