She never imagined her life like this.
When she was a little kid, she thought everything was so perfect. She had her Mom, Dad, and  brothers, so life seemed normal.
So little and innocent, not worrying, not caring about anything at all.
She always thought life was like a big dream, and when she fell asleep, life would start all over again. But when she was seven, that dream became a nightmare.

She went from having everything a little girl can dream of to nothing but darkness and emptiness.
Many nights she cried out for help, but nobody listened.
Feeling powerless and hopeless, she lay there wondering,
When is this nightmare going to end?
Time passed, and finally, she realized this wasn’t a nightmare; this was her little life.
Feeling so broken and empty, she continued to laugh and smile.

Years went on. She had this one dream,
She would be sitting at a table with her family eating dinner.
Every time she thought about this, she felt a little hope left. She held onto that so tight that she couldn’t hold on anymore,
Because the more she held it tight, the more the dream started to fade. 

Feeling hopeless, she became an object in everyone’s eyes,
Feeling like nobody cared or loved her. Crying for her mother to save her, but she never did.
Wandering around, hoping to find a way through life, and doing what she taught herself.
Too scared to talk, too scared to understand, too scared to trust, Having no faith,
Crying, screaming, she wants the pain to stop.

Feeling numb to the world, bleeding tears, Lying there lifeless and thinking,
Am I worth it?
Do I even matter to anyone?
Would I ever be free from this prison?
Drowning in her thoughts,
Barely breathing,
Feeling trapped in her anxiety, she slowly died inside.

Being labeled as “the crazy girl,” “the troubled girl,” too broken to ever be loved,
Will never amount to nothing stamped in her brain,
Couldn’t see the good in herself,
Treating her body badly, her mind and soul.

She always thought that life was never going to be okay for her.
All she wanted was to feel normal, but somehow her thoughts got the best of her. Never knew what a normal life felt like because she was trapped for fifteen years.
Being too scared to say “no,” pretending to be okay with things she wasn’t okay with.
The guilt ate her up inside,
The regrets, the worrying, the self-blaming all took a part of her heart, day by day.

She sat trembling in fear that something bad was going to happen
Because that’s all she knew. She screamed in silence, but no one ever heard her,
Feeling like she was running away from something or someone,
Running out of time,
Never-ending race with her mind, her heart a constant battle.

Drowning in depression, figuring a way out,
Numbing her body so badly that life doesn’t seem real anymore. She lies there in silence but screaming in the mirror.
Words killed her more than a blade could ever, escaping the feelings,
Wishing she could go back and hug that girl that was once innocent.