I feel sadness and disappointment,
there is only emptiness inside me
so I am going to the field,
my sunflower field.

Not far away from my sanctuary,
I smell the early sunflower seeds,
And hear the melodic singing of birds.
There are jays’ soft chirping
and ouzels’ sonorous singing,
I am nearby.

I walk up to the first sunflower I see;
It is a little bit higher than me.
The sunlight shines on some missing seeds;
I know that flying birds ate them.
I go farther,
to the middle of the field
where nobody sees me.

I wander between huge flowers and see insects.
On the stems, I see ladybugs.
On the ground, spiders.
I am not alone here,
but this company does not bother me.

My thoughts are about everything around me,
not about something else.

I see the yellow leaves
and the black circle made by sunflower seeds.
I will stay here for an hour
Then I will return home
feeling inspired and happy.

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Born in Ukraine, 19-year-old Sasha Vavilova came to the United States in 2018. She is now a student in Veronica Jordan-Sardi’s CLIP class at CUNY’s College of Staten Island. In her free time, she likes writing, dancing, and watching movies. What she likes most about writing is traveling to different thoughts and places in her memories.