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There are days that we are in good humor; there are days that we have humor from hell. This week I traveled by car to work. I had time to see the landscapes. I love the feeling that comes from looking through the car window. I can’t imagine how blessed I am.

The past weeks, I had been extremely tired and busy. I had not been able to think about the beautiful things in life. Now I’ve been enjoying looking out the car window and feeling the excitement of seeing different things every day.

Sometimes I feel like Summer: free, happy, excited, thrilling, friendly, energetic. I want to do everything I can and cannot. I have the desire to transmit peace and happiness to everyone and anyone. I feel radiant, like the sun, and see daylight like a new beginning. I’m in love with life, with what it gives us and what it does not give us. I have the desire to find an explanation of each thing, with the desire to know nothing. I have the desire to stay active and fulfill every dream or goal I have.

Sometimes I feel like Spring: spoiled, pampered, smiling. I wish everything was done for me, but at the same time, I like to do everything myself. Sometimes I feel like a little girl again, with people coming to my defense and trying to make me feel happy all the time. That makes me feel vulnerable, defenseless, wanting to explore the world calmly and patiently. It feels like the rain, although not running and taking everything in its own time. There is no rush to do things in a hurry. I know adult life doesn’t work like that.

Sometimes I feel like Winter: sad, angry, with bad humor, wanting to run because I feel all the stress on my shoulders. I feel extremely cold and want to be sheltered. I feel like snow: beautiful, strong, and focused on what I like to do. Sometimes, I feel so happy. I want to see everything beautiful around me. I want to be sitting reading a book or writing a story. I enjoy planning my life, long-term or short-term, with my husband. For example, I enjoy planning something for our weekend or a weekday dinner, just to catch up on our stuff.

Sometimes I feel like Fall: inspired, motivated, and excited. I am falling in love with the various colors that inspire me with the landscapes that nature gives us. I love life, even though sometimes we fall like the leaves of the trees in its season or period. At the end of the day, the seasons will continue to change. There will always be good times and bad times, but it is important to keep moving forward.

This is life, with changes, emotions, discouragement. Life leaves lessons that will help us improve or get worse. We are free to feel different each time we pass through a season because the next time we pass through summer, spring, fall, or winter, we can be another person.

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Jennifer Alonzo came to the U.S. from Honduras in April 2015. She is proud of being Honduran. She speaks Spanish and English. She has been a student in the advanced writing class at University Settlement since 2016, and this is her third publication in LR. She is passionate about her family, friends, traveling, and writing.